That's what I have today--The Working Mom Blues. Or is it just Mommy guilt? You know the type of guilt you feel when you can't be there 24/7 with your child no matter how much you would like to? I have to work full time. I don't have an option. We don't have flex hours, no part time, just full time 9-5. Not a bad schedule usually. It turns into a bad schedule when your child asks you to stay or when she doesn't want you to leave when you drop her off at preschool.
As much as I hate to admit this, I know in my heart of hearts that I could not be a stay at home mom. I don't have the patience, creativity or energy. I know that many are judging me right now. But I know me. I wouldn't be happy. But I would love to work less hours and spend less time doing stuff that adults have to do and have more time with Brynn.
One thing I know for sure is this: Both of my parents worked full time jobs. My dad worked 2 or 3 at the same time. I don't remember them not being there. When I needed them, they were there. I turned out ok. I can only hope that Brynn feels the same way in 30 years when she looks back at her life.